<br><h3> Chapter One </h3> <p> Here is a story my mother has never told me.<br> It is a day shes relived a thousand times, the twenty-first <br> of June, 1951, the longest day of that or any year. A day that still <br> hasnt ended, as some part of her still paces that dark apartment in <br> Jamaica Plain, waiting. I imagine the curtains closed against the <br> five oclock sun, hot and bright as midday; her baby boy peacefully<br> asleep; her young self with nothing to do but wander from <br> room to room, still filled with her dead mother-in-laws things.<br> At the time shed thought it a grand apartment, her from Roxbury<br> where the children slept three to a bed. Even as a boy her <br> husband had had his own bedroom, an unimaginable luxury. His <br> mother had been injured somehow giving birth and there had <br> been no more children. This fact alone made the Breens wealthier<br> than most, though Harrys father had only worked at Filenes <br> stacking crates in the warehouse. The entire apartment had come <br> from Filenes, on the employee discount, the lamps and brocade <br> divan and what she had learned were called Oriental rugs. Mary <br> herself had never bought a thing at Filenes. Her own mother <br> shopped at Sears.<br> In the bedroom the baby slept deeply. She parted the curtains <br> and let the sun shine on his face. Harry, when he came home, <br> would pull them shut, worried someone might see him dressing <br> or undressing through their third-floor windows. Sure, it was <br> possiblethe windows faced Pond Street, also lined with three-<br> deckersthough why he cared was a puzzle. He was a man, after <br> all. And there was nothing wrong with the sight of him. The first <br> morning of their marriage, lying in the too-soft bed in the tourist <br> cabin in Wellfleet, she had looked up at him in wonderment, her <br> first time seeing him in daylight, his bare chest and shoulders, and <br> her already four months along. Nothing wrong with him at all, <br> her husband tall and blue-eyed, with shiny dark hair that fell into <br> his eyes when he ducked his head, a habit left over from a bashful<br> adolescence, though nobody, now, would call him shy. Harry <br> Breen could talk to anyone. Behind the counter at Old Colony <br> Hardware he had a way with the customers, got them going about <br> their clogged pipes and screen doors and cabinets they were <br> installing. He complimented their plans, suggested small improvements, <br> sent them out the door with twice what theyd come in <br> for. A natural salesman, never mind that he couldnt, himself, hit <br> a nail with a hammer. When a fuse blew at the apartment it was <br> Mary who ventured into the dark basement with a flashlight.<br> What did you do before? shed asked, half astonished, when she <br> returned to the lit apartment and found Harry and his mother sitting<br> placidly in the kitchen, stirring sugar into teacups.<br> We didnt burn so many lights before, the old lady said.<br> It was a reminder among many others that Marys presence <br> was unwelcome, that Mrs. Breen, at least, had not invited her <br> into their lives, this grimy interloper with her swollen belly and <br> her skirts and blouses from Sears. As though her condition were a <br> mystery on the order of the Virgin Birth, as though Harry Breen <br> had had nothing to do with it.<br> She lifted Arthur from his crib and gave his bottom a pat. <br> He wriggled, squealed, fumbled blindly for her breast. The sodden<br> diaper would have to be changed, the baby fed. In this way <br> minutes would pass, and finally an hour. The stubborn sun would <br> begin its grudging descent. Across town, in Roxbury, girls would <br> be dressing for the dances, Clare Boyle and her sister and whoever <br> else they ran with now, setting out by twos and threes down the <br> hill to Dudley Street.<br> She finished with the diaper, then sat at the window and <br> unbuttoned her blouse, aware of the open curtains. If Harry came <br> upon her like this, her swollen breast exposed, what would he <br> do then? The thought was thrilling in a way she couldnt have <br> explained. But it was after six, and still there was no sign of him. <br> When his mother was alive hed come straight home after work. <br> You could set your watch by it, his footsteps on the stairs at five<br> thirty exactly, even on Fridays when the other men stopped at the <br> pub for a taste. Lately, though, his habits had shifted. Mondays <br> and Tuesdays he played cards at the Vets.<br> Once, leaving church, hed nodded to some men she didnt <br> recognize, a short one and a tall one sharing a cigarette on the <br> sidewalk. See you tomorrow, then, Harry called in a friendly tone. <br> The short man had muttered under his breath, and the tall one <br> had guffawed loudly. To Mary it couldnt have been plainer that <br> they were not Harrys friends.<br> Theyd met the way everyone met, at the dances. Last summer <br> the Intercolonial was the place to be; now it might be the Hibernian-<br> or the Winslow or the Rose Croix for all she knew. On a <br> Saturday night, with Johnny Powells band playing, a thousand or <br> more would crowd upstairs at the Intercolonial, a mirrored globe <br> hanging from the ceiling so that the walls shivered with light.<br> She was seventeen then, too young for such pleasures. But it <br> had been easy enough to slip out on a Friday night with Ma <br> dead asleep, exhausted by the work of getting three small ones <br> bathed and in their beds. And it wasnt even a lie to go dancing<br> on a Wednesday, when Mary really did attend the novena at <br> nine oclock as she was supposed to, the church packed with other <br> overdressed girls and men whod already had a drink or two, <br> whod meet up later across the street at Fontaines Café and make <br> their plans for the evening. All right, then. See you at the hall. The <br> men were deep on Wednesdays; you could change partners all <br> night long if you wanted. Thursdays were a different story, maids <br> night out, the halls packed with Irish girls. There was almost no <br> point in going on a Thursday, the numbers were so against you. <br> On a Thursday you were lucky to get a single dance.<br> Harry Breen hadnt chosen her, not at first. That first time <br> theyd danced purely by chance. She knew all the dancesthe reels <br> and jigs, the wild céilí. At the Intercolonial waltzes were the thing, <br> though once each night Johnny Powell would force the dreamy <br> couples apart. Line up, everybody, for the Siege of Ennis. A mad crush, <br> then, as they formed two long lines, men and girls facing. Youd <br> take your turn with every one, herself and Clare Boyle laughing <br> the whole way through. Some of the men were clumsy, some so <br> strong theyd nearly swing you off your feet.<br> She noticed Harry a moment before he reached for her. He <br> was taller than the rest, his movements liquid; he swung her <br> gracefully, smooth and controlled. And that thing she first felt, <br> that swooning joy: maybe it was simple geometry, the relative <br> size and shape of their bodies, his chest and shoulders just where <br> they should be, their hips meeting, her eyes level with his mouth.<br> The plain fact was that shed chased him, courted his attention<br> Gone to greater lengths than any girl should. There was <br> no point, now, in being ashamed. She had a ring on her finger <br> and it hardly mattered how. They were married fast by her uncle <br> Fergus, whod skipped, discreetly, the time-consuming step of <br> publishing the banns. Fergus had guessed what everyone would <br> soon know, that Mary had gotten exactly what she wanted, and <br> a bit more besides.<br> She looked down at the baby at her breast.<br> In the kitchen she took her beads from the drawer and found <br> the station in time. Missing the Archbishops greeting was like <br> coming late to a movie; shed be unable to enter into the spirit <br> of the thing. When Harrys mother was living, they had knelt in <br> the parlor for the rosary. Now the old lady was gone and no one <br> was looking, so Mary dragged a chair to the open window and <br> settled herself there. I believe in God the Father Almighty, Creator of <br> Heaven and Earth. Through the window a breeze came, carrying<br> the Archbishops voice from the two apartments below. Up <br> and down the street, every radio was tuned to the same station. <br> Through every open window came the same holy words.<br> It being Thursday, they started with the Joyful. As a girl she <br> had studied the illustrations in her mothers missal. The Joyful <br> Mysteries were the most straightforward, the pictures almost <br> Protestant in their simplicity: the Blessed Virgin kneeling in prayer, <br> waiting for the angel; the Virgin noticeably pregnant, embracing<br> her cousin Elizabeth. The Sorrowful were haunting and in a <br> way lovelier: Our Lord kneeling in the Garden of Gethsemane, <br> glowing in His anguish, perspiring drops of blood. But it was the <br> Glorious Mysteries she waited for, Our Lord lifted into heaven, <br> clouds bubbling beneath His feet like a cauldron of spirits. The <br> Resurrection, the Ascension, the Assumption of the Virgin: all <br> these stirred her deeply, even though (or perhaps because) she <br> understood them the least. That was the beauty of it: contemplating <br> the miracles, sublime and unknowable, and yet the words you <br> repeated couldnt be simpler. Hail Mary, full of grace. A prayer youd <br> known since earliest childhood, familiar as your mothers voice.<br> She closed her eyes and enjoyed the breeze, the babys warm <br> weight, the Archbishops familiar intonations. She had seen him <br> once standing beside the carousel at Paragon Park, eating ice <br> cream with a dozen beaming nuns. In photos, in full regalia, <br> he was imposing, and yet you never forgot that he was from St. <br> Eulalias in South Boston, that his own father had worked in the <br> repair pits at the Boston El. He never forgot it, either. You could <br> tell this from the photographs: the Archbishop tossing around a <br> football with the CYO boys, or raising a glass at a priests golden <br> jubilee. The Archbishop wouldnt say no to a drink, according to <br> her uncle Fergus, whod met him on several occasions. Cushing <br> was Gods own, and yet he was theirs, too, in every way a regular <br> man.<br> She heard two sharp knocks at the front door. <br> Coming, she called, drying herself with a tea towel, noticing<br> all at once the wet stains on her blouse.<br> She threw open the door. A strange man stood there smoking <br> a cigarette. He wore a thin mustache and was her own height, <br> though she was barefoot and he wore heeled boots. It took her <br> a moment to place him: the short man from outside the church. <br> Is your husband at home? He looked over her shoulder, his <br> eyes darting around the room. <br> Im sorry, hes not.<br> From the kitchen the Archbishop droned: Glory be to the Father <br> and to the Son and to the Holy Ghost. <br> Listening to the rosary, were you? My mum does that every <br> night. The man dropped his cigarette and crushed it with his <br> heel. He stepped past her into the apartment. Youre sure he isnt <br> here? He glanced into the kitchen as though Harry might be <br> hiding and Mary felt a sudden urge to laugh, a nervous tic. She <br> was forever laughing at the wrong times. <br> He hasnt come home yet. Try the store, maybe?<br> Ive been there. He left hours ago.<br> I dont know, then. He could have stopped off at the pub.<br> The man frowned. Never seen him take a drink, myself. <br> Likes to keep his wits about him, doesnt he? He smiled then, <br> and she saw that on both sides his teeth were missing. It made <br> the front ones look suspect, like the vampire dentures children <br> wore at Halloween.<br> In her arms the baby let out a loud hiccup. She raised him to <br> her shoulder. Excuse me. I was in the middle of feeding him. <br> Patting him gently, waiting for him to burp. She was afraid to <br> look down at her blouse.<br> The man stepped in close to her, smelling rankly of cigarette. <br> Sorry to miss that, he said, and to her horror his rough hand <br> touched her face.<br> Arthur let out another hiccup and vomited in a great burst. <br> Jaysus! The man stepped back, shaking his sleeve. It was <br> coated in yellow spew. <br> Oh, no! Im so sorry. Mary took the towel from her shoulder <br> and wiped uselessly at his sleeve. The smell was terrible, sour as <br> vinegar. The man tore his hand away, eyeing the baby like a snake. <br> Thats a real charmer youve got there. He turned to go. <br> Tell your man Shorty wants to see him.<br> She closed the door quickly behind him. The door, then the <br> bolt, then the chain.<br> Tell your man Shorty wants to see him.<br> He had never, in her memory, stayed out after dark. Only for <br> the card games, and then he always told her beforehand: Ive got <br> the cards tonight, so dont hold supper. Ill have a sandwich or something <br> at Taylors. <br> If he stayed out all night, would she sit up waiting? Brushing<br> her teeth a hundred strokes, a hundred strokes to her long <br> dark hair. Always the counting calmed herbrushstrokes, rosary <br> beads. Half the reason she loved the dancing was the counting of <br> the steps. It gave her mind something to do. <br> A strange fear gnawed at her stomach. For the first time she <br> wished for a regular man, whod go to a pub on a Friday. Then, at <br> least, shed know where to find him. But it was true what Shorty <br> had said: Harry liked to keep a clear head. There was nothing to <br> do but go to Old Colony Hardware. As detectives did in the radio <br> serials: she would go to where Harry was last seen. <br> Ive been there, Shorty had said. He left hours ago. <br> How many hours? she wondered. Where on earth could he <br> have gone? <br> She went to the telephone. Is Father Egan in, please? This is <br> his niece, Mary Breen. The name new enough, still, to have an <br> odd flavor on her tongue. <br> Wedding tonight, the housekeeper said. Hell be back late. <br> I can have him call you tomorrow. <br> Yes, please, Mary said. <br> <p> <i>(Continues...)</i> <p> <!-- copyright notice --> <br></pre> <blockquote><hr noshade size='1'><font size='-2'> Excerpted from <b>Faith</b> by <b>Jennifer Haigh</b> Copyright © 2011 by Jennifer Haigh. Excerpted by permission of HarperCollins. All rights reserved. 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